so sometimes.....

people annoy me.

My hands are tied at work. As much as I would love to fix everything instantaneously, I cannot.  There are approval processes I have to go by (as much as they make my and everyone else's life difficult) and things that could be done in a day now have to take 3-4 days due to distance and drama.

it annoys me when people assume I am merely being incompetent or whatever because I cannot solve the problems as quickly as they would like. my bad. take it up with the corporate office - not with me.  As much as I exist on this planet to serve everyone else - sometimes, I just don't give a damm.

/end rant

purple haze

So I did something a bit crazy.

No - I did not get eloped, or get pierced or have some massive tattoo that covers my arm.

But I do have purple hair now.  It's purple with some red streaks that looks blue under certain lighting. 

It's pretty badass.

If you want to check it out - I got a pic on my myspace -- http://www.myspace.com/zafinob

woohoo to the crazy things one does before turning 25.

*tear tear cry cry*

I'm going to be a mess this week. I can already sense it and it's only monday.

I don't deal well with goodbyes. I never have. 

sigh.

just let go...

A message to you from me:

I'm letting you go.  I should've done it years ago but I'm going to do it now.  Finding out what I have and just doing some serious thinking about my insignificant part in it all - I have to let you go.

Nothing good can come of it.  Nothing good for me can come of this.  You shouldn't be the exception to the rules.  Maybe part of me will regret it....maybe part of me will regret it forever - but in the long run, I don't want to be made into someone's fool.  It's not worth it. 

.....................

just breathe

I just spent the last 30 minutes stressed out beyond belief.

I absolutely hate the feeling of being on pins & needles for either the worst news ever (not necessarily just for you...but even for someone you know) or no news at all.

If I didn't care so much - I'd be a less stressed out person.

I also have certain misgivings towards corporations/companies who treat employees as one would treat a disposable camera (just make an attempt to follow this analogy...for my sake) - use it a couple times, get some good stuff out of it...throw it out. NEXT.  You're dealing with people....not fucking items.  Just keep on burning those bridges....

/end rant.